My wife and I both have been through an underscribable amount of trauma and issues the past almost two years. Long story short it seems like during all of this i lost my way, as In she needed me to help cope with everything and to make her feel ok. I got lost in my head and let the weight of everything crush me. I wasn't there for her and it caused her to gradually pull away from me. I realized it too late. Now she is gone, and I know it's very cliche but I don't know what im going to do without her. All I know is that everything anyone has ever told me about how badly it hurts to lose the one you love. Especially when they loved you so much and you let it die. Wow all I can say is I feel completely hopeless right now and I have kids that are depending on me and even that is barely enough to keep me going.
