- Heartblues asked Ever since my girlfriend left me I don’t feel like moving on with my life anymore. Every waking moment is just so exhausting. All I want to do is cry but it just hurts too much that no tears actually come out of my eyes. I feel like my heart is about to explode. Sleep is the only time that I don’t feel the pain but then I dream about her and it hurts again. She’s all I could think of the whole day. We still went to a Ukraine ski trip for our anniversary last month. Now, she’s gone. Where did I go wrong? What can I do better? Was I not enough? Maybe I’m not worth loving after all. Maybe my love wasn’t enough reason for her to stay. The thought of ending my life crossed my mind a lot of times already. What’s life without her?