Lost in a futureless marriage.
Married for 18 years, the last 14 years have been basically sexless.
12 to 14 times a year.
My attempts to engage her have been shut down 100% of the time.
I think that rejection has conditioned me.
Im not attracted to my wife the way i used to be.
She is perfect in every other aspect of our marriage and family life.
I do love her, but i cannot stay with her.
75% of me is already gone, but 25% has me anchored.
I dont know what the right decision is
Thanks you said she is good in every other aspects including family too. In all things she does for you, the kids and the family in general, how many of them are you part off, physically, mentally and emotionally? When she is left to deal with the challenges alone, it will affect her sex life due to stress.
I think you should be patient and put yourself in her situation to know what she is exactly going through. Maybe she is busy, stressed or tensed due to some reason. It is possible that she is unable to maintain a proper work-life balance. There maybe several reasons, but do not assume that she doesn't loves you. It seems you still love and respect her. So, for that love, bring a spark in her life, ask her to go with you on a dinner date or something. If you have tried all these things and still unhappy with the results, you should consider consulting a sex therapist.