Words said 20 years ago on a first date...still true?
We reconnected again as friends about 9 years ago, kept it light, initially, but feeling was there and finally expressed.
He has a child, she is 16.
Ive accepted he doesn't want to get married and I've accepted he had a child.
However, about a year ago he brought up "marrying me on his death bed" so I can gain his retirement/medical/etc and he'd know I was taken care of upon his death.
He told his parents this as well.
I began to research laws in my state about my rights to his asset w/out a will or without a marriage.
This is nothing compelling from what I've found to convince me that I would be secure and cared for upon his death with marriage, even a will has some weak spots.
5 months or so ago I showed up at his place and he was weirdly angry and went on some rant about how he always had a reason to NOT marry other women and that he was angry he wasn't able to think of a decent and logical reason to NOT marry me.
Romantic, I know, LOL.
So i pushed the issue.
like what's your hang-up? You don't come from divorce? Your family members have gotten married and it seems to work for them.
We both historically made comments about marriage being an institution and how everything changes after, yada yada yada.
heres the thing.
we are not married and things have changed in the years we known one another.
4 months ago he asks my mom for her permission she is please as punch and of course gives it, he tells me what he did and what she said and how he can't think of a good reason not to and that it's important to me so yeah.
let's do this.
I know super romantic.
We tell his parents who are very surprised but clearly relieved and so very happy for us.
They offer up their anniversary bands for us to use, His mom's had to be cut off her finger and sized to fit me and his dads was sized for him.
He wasn't gonna wear his, I was fine, I didn't wear mine much either as it had a decent size rock in it and I work in food and bev.
industry and worried I'd lose it or have it pop out of its setting by snagging it on something.
small party thrown.
talk of planning vow exchange brings all his anxiety back to the surface.
so I back off and just chill w/ engagement for weeks.
I had a thought of an outsize vow exchange at a local river spot by a nonreligious person who is licensed to provide service and am stoked with idea as it would be super cheap and it would be us in our eliment.
no fancy dancy traditional vows church service.
quick and easy.
he doesn't respond to my idea for hours, may have been a full day and a half.
His reply: just so you know we will be divorced in a year, this whole marriage thing will be what breaks us, i hope you realize that.
You can imagine my pain.
so I said my peace and walked away, humiliated, angry, sad, disappointed, and yet not totally shocked.
Perhaps as sign of how well I know this man.
Time went by and as it did.
i was more sad about not having him in my life then all the other initial feelings.
We got back together but back to boyfriend/girlfriend, agreed to not discuss marriage for at least a year as he made me feel like it was all to fast to soon that he got cold feet.
Its only been a few months back together and after a few drinks the other night I snuggled up to him on couch and blurted out "are you ever gonna marry me" and his instant reply was no.
Am I naive to think he will come around? Perhaps.
hopeful Id prefers to think.
But if he doesn't and won't, how can he keep his promise of my security after his death to satisfy my need to feel confident in that promise.
If he gets sick, or when he gets sick, what rights will I have to visit him, touch him, or make medical decisions on his behalf? How come I can be understanding about his "no marriage no kids" first date statement of 20 years ago and him HAVING a 16-year-old but he can't understand how I can flip the script and now want to be married.
Juar typing this shows me how stupid is logic and reasoning is.
Clearly he has a disdain for marriage.
I'm just not sure what it is, why its there and why he can move past it or consider that he could have been misguided before.
When does he compromise about things he is uneasy about.
I'm worried he will never create a living will or trust, will never marry me, an my love of him will keep me with him until he dies and by then I;ll be old alone and broke.
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